~Heisenberg's principle of Uncertainty~
Today I got an SMS around 3 pm regarding the most bizarre demise of our Forensic Medicine Teacher. He taught us last year when we were third year medical students. Perhaps the death wasn't as bizarre as the fact that he committed suicide. Maybe even that wasn't as bizarre as the fact that he was Dr.Tariq ,one of the most loveable teachers you could get to know. I thought of it as some utterly insane rumour, until I got it confirmed from a few other sources, and the final nail in the coffin was when I read the news on the front-page of local newspapers.
How could someone so benign commit suicide? Apparently, he had some dispute with the property dealer of his area over some land. He went into the property dealer's office and waited over two hours to meet the man in private. He then walked in, and killed the property dealer and shot another guy sitting there, before using the gun on himself.
The newspaper stated that Dr.Tariq was severely depressed and was also undergoing treatment at the local Psychiatric Department.
It is utterly sad to see someone who was so vocal about the inadequacy of the autopsy methods in Pakistan, being subjected to the same protocol in DHQ. I am still in shock over the incident. I pray that Allah forgives him and gives him place in Heaven. Though, suicide in Islam is perhaps one of the worst and most punishable offense. And I remember him in class telling us how low suicide was. How could someone change from such a gentle human being to a murderer? Perhaps, this is one of the few uncertainties of life. I pray that we all live and die as good Muslims. I hope we don't ever have to go through the agony of suicide.
As for Dr.Tariq, I pray for your soul to rest in peace. You were one of the few inspirations in my life as a medical student. I just wish that things would have happened differently. May Allah Bless You and forgive your shortcomings.Ameen. We still love you.
~DeJaVu~
Like every year, it has come again, ready to torment us. The 4th year Proffessional Exam starts in a little over 24 hours. Need loads of prayers!!! As they say in med school, expect the unexpected. Let's see what shit UHS has in store for us!!!!! The fight begins....hoping I don't get knocked out.
~Old Days~
I miss blogging like I did a while ago, when I could actually access my dashboard and get comments that is :( . Ever since I converted to the beta blogger, I can't get comments from people in Pakistan and can't access the dashboard even through a proxybuster. So, I would strongly discourage people in Pakistan to switch to beta-blogger.
Ramblings
So bored.....nothing to do....noone online......the same freaking problem..whenever I feel like talking, noones there...and whenever I'm ultra-preoccupied, there are a zillion people online.
Sorry, I can't access my blog through blogger beta, apparently because of the blanket ban on it by the Supreme Court of Pakistan. So I'm blogging indirectly through Google Spreadsheet. That is why I can't put a title to my posts. Therefore apologies in advance.
As the exams get closer, life gets more monotonous. There is nothing to do besides study, sleep, eat and get these stupid tension pangs, when you feel you don't know anything. And the things that you studied just don't seem to stick into that STUPID brainy box.
But I sometimes enjoy this monotonous lifestyle, especially the fact that I don't have to goto college. For now I am so sick of med school that I can barely drag myself there. Not meaning to sound disgraceful and all, but I can't help it. I need a break from seeing the same faces over and over everyday, making small talk, and seeing those hollow expressions in their eyes. Funny how we've sat together for the last four years, yet developed very little friendships. So these exam breaks are a welcome respite from the facade of med school.
Here is something Yasir my friend posted on orkut.......
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Here’s to the Crazy ones.
The Misfits.
The Rebels.
The Troublemakers.
The Round pegs in the Square holes.
The ones who see things Differently.
They’re not fond of rules.
And they have no respect for the status quo.
You can praise them, disagree with them, quote them,
disbelieve them, glorify or vilify them.
About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them.
Because they change things.
They Invent.
They Imagine.
They Heal.
They Explore.
They Create.
They Inspire.
They push the human race forward.
Maybe they have to be Crazy.
How else can you stare at an empty canvas and see a work of art?
Or sit in silence and hear a song that’s never been written?
Or gaze at a red planet and see a laboratory on wheels?
While some see them as the crazy ones,we see genius.
Because the people who are crazy enough to think
they can change the world, are the ones who do.
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[an excerpt from an astrophysics book i read a while ago; may be it was one of Carl Sagan's works or somethin but im not sure]
