Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Guilty

Weird as it is, even though I am in Medical College, I feel I don't want to really adopt this profession. I have this passion to join foreign service. I love the thrill of going to so many countries, visting exotic places, and knowing people from so many nations. So far, I've been to Yeman, South Korea, Egypt, Saudia Arabia and UAE. And it's been a blast. I love my dad's job and would love to emulate him.
Some people ask aren't you wasting a seat then. Some deserving kid would have gotten into med school and might have actually done something useful. To answer that I say, number one if he was that good, he should have gotten more marks than me. It's simple, in Pakistan, the only way you earn respect academically is when you're either a doctor or an engineer becasue that's where all the bright kids go(as harsh and stupid as it is). And I believe that I am amongst the best. I never ever want to feel that I can't get into an institution because I am not good enough.That's why I've given SAT's and all sort of exams. Just to prove that I"m good enough to do anything.Afterall I was good enough to be invited by GYLC for a two week Young Leader Conference in Washington D.C and New York.
Ok, and another reason is that it was my mom's passion I goto med school ,so I could live my grandfather's dream. He couldn't get in, not because he wasn't good enough, but because he didn't have enough money.Harsh as it is. And thirdly, at least I have a backup plan if I don't get selected for foreign service. That's as honest as I can get.

4 comments:

Mybrid said...

You could always join Doctors Without Borders and resolve both problems in one solution.
Just an advice from someone who took the wrong path for the same reasons you stated - don't give up your dreams. Keep them alive.

Shakia said...

I'm in the same sits as you :(. I'm trying out for med school myself, don't think I'll be able to... 1st my grade wont be enough and 2nd I so dont want to...!!! :(
Guess I'll try anyway... no harm in trying...righ? I might like it in the end... (well I wont):(

Aftab Iqbal said...

Mybrid thanks alot....checked out the link....maybe i'll try an internship there and see if i like it.....Shakia....best of luck to u..If u get into med school....u'd be cursing everytime exams come...believe me..hmm..however, just for the record...medicine does become rewarding when you see the patients smile at you and give you prayers and thank you. That's when you feel, okz, maybe it was all worth it. But still, therez this emptiness in me!!And yeah.....there are the fun sides of med school too...i'll write about them as soon as I get time.You guys take care.

Arooj said...

ufff... i can so relate to this jigar... i mean, for the first 3 yrs fashion designing seemed like the perfet idea... venting wateva creativity i was blessed with and nao in this final yr with only one more semester to go till i specialize and suddenly we start having these attacks.. wat if this line of profession isnt rite? all the religious connotations with the profession... drawing semi nude figures... when the "wrong" seems "rite"... hahahhaaaa... i can so bludy relate to it...